God it hurts!!

So much that I end up hating myself!

I let it happen, again. I brought the days in which nothing made sense, the ones in which you had to be in, but simply could not!

Will I ever learn? Will I ever understand that I can´t depend on others to be happy, complete? When and how can I simply run away from those who are already empty, unable to love as much as I can?

Please God teach me how, show me the moves, the steps to be less, to show less, not to expect too much, because I´ll probably never find the other half of me, and I need to accept it, fast, now.